Every Time I Turn Away From God, Everything Starts Going Wrong

When you come right down to it, I am little more than a lowly wretch and a serial sinner.

Although God has always looked out for my well-being and bailed me out of more fixes than I will ever know, I continually turn my back on Him and constantly disobey His teachings. I frequently lie, manipulate others, run con games, brag and boast, hold myself above others, cheat, and I could go on.

What prompted me to come clean like this are some of my recent writings; three to be exact. In each of those pieces I gave into, and allowed myself to be guided by, what I call the dark and wicked forces. Instead of publishing articles that were positive and uplifting, or presenting what I had to say in “kind and gentle” ways, I took the low road by launching attacks against others and being as cynical as I could be.

I am a fake, a fraud and a phony because I am always walking around espousing that I am on a mission to do everything I can to make positive contributions to my country and the world as a whole -- when in actuality, I spend a lot of time and energy doing and saying negative things.

I, of all people, should know that following the dark and wicked forces instead of God leads to nothing but pain, misery, loneliness and despair. Because of all of the troubles my sinful ways have caused me throughout my life, I should be well aware that I should always do my very best to lead a clean life dominated by kindness towards others as well as positive actions and behavior.

Now, I know that I will never come anywhere close to being a “perfect, God-like human being”. I will continue to commit sins and, from time to time, I will fall prey to the dark and wicked forces. I will always be a work in progress.

And that leads me to say the following: To succeed in life and to be all I can be, I must never allow myself to remain in the clutches of the dark and wicked forces -- and I must always make every effort I can to go with God.